But not anymore.
Last week I received news that my scans came back clean, my cancer indicator mark is very low and that all my blood work is perfectly normal. We have been waiting for this since last July. Couldn’t stop smiling.
Now, we begin a new portion of our life nearly as challenging. Healing physically and mentally. Moving on. Not dwelling on what the next scan may show. Living.
My mother in law has been with us since two days after I went into the hospital in July last year. She leaves in three weeks. While we all really need to get on with our lives, she has done so much for us and that burden will return to me when she leaves. And I am scared. She needs to leave but she has been the greatest help to us.
I don’t know where to go from here just yet. I don’t know how to start over. I have to create some new order to my life. Some focus. I need to remember my purpose and my dreams.
Most importantly I need to remember to live my life to the fullest. I have been given a second chance. So many aren’t. I must make the most of it. I must live.